Watching the world go by
This one hasn’t been finished just not sure of what direction to go exactly (medium wise). The drawing is a sort of flashback image I had in therapy. I don’t remember what the conversation was just that all of a sudden I was dissociating back to preschool. I was watching all my little classmates run around and have fun, I wanted so much to join them but I was to afraid. This happened a lot in my school years. Instead of joining in with my classmates I often sat back watching, floating off into my own little world. This memory/flashback was really upsetting to me all the feelings of loneliness and fear came rushing at me. I guess dissociating was how I dealt with it back then but this time I had to face the feelings full force. One of the hard things was trying to communicate what was going on and communicate with this part of me because, this was a part of me that can’t or won’t speak. She just sits eyes wide absorbing everything she sees, trying to get attention and remain unassuming/”invisible” at the same time.
