The Flow of Us

Representation of Us - Pastel and Construction paper

I think I had meant to stick this up a while ago but forgot. This one was supposed to go along with the one of the ball of light.  It was meant to represent that inside part as well as it represents all of us and how we work/function.  It’s made up of lots of dots each trying to stay in it’s own seperate line but, some of them end up blending together, the swirling in and out of each section, kind of like how each part sometimes flows fluidly (both to front and also in terms of ‘jobs’). It might kind of look messy and chaotic but, it’s not always.

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The Dark Ones

Extreme protector – Chalk Pastel

Another DA – Soft Chalk Pastel

Persecutor Part

These are the Dark Alters (DA) or extreme protectors. The are all related, sort of as siblings they say.  The two sisters are just extreme protectors and do no harm to the body, on the rare occasion and only when absolutely necessary will they get physically violent with outsiders.  Mainly people get one look at “them” and know to back off very very quickly and start behaving (being very petite I get reports from friends who have encountered this experience of me as very startling).  They defend not only me and the other insiders but also our outside friends.

The male DA, the winged one, is the persecuting part. Who will and does harm the other insiders and the physical body. He will also cut off communication to the outside world when he’s about. We believe in his case that one day we can persuade him to change and that he would make the ultimate protector with out harming us anymore.

The other extreme protector was in a previous post as a profile of a woman, done in gray pastel.  She also works to be disruptive and harmful to the inside. Unlike the male persecutor we are unsure this part would ever change.

More of the insiders – one potential triggering

Thoughts of integration – Soft Pastel

child part napping – Soft Chalk Pastel

Representation of insiders/world – Acrylic Paint

Part punished by persecutor part – Chalk Pastel on grocery bag

You can click on the picture for more of the stories about them but here is the summary:

The first one shows one of the insiders down in the dark in the left corner, she is trying to get through the tunnel to the light and to myself and our Internal Self Helper (represented by the single figure in the top corner). She often feels like a burden and is in a lot of pain, she was trying to think of ways not to exist anymore and the thought of integration was one at the time.

The next one is the same child part that was posted in a previous post. She was showing herself taking a nap.

The flower represents the child parts and an area of the inner world where they are often found. This was another one where I was in an observing role as several parts painted.

The last one is the part that was also in a previous post, in the previous post she was in a red dress leaning against a wall. Sometimes she is seen wearing older clothes with sort of vintage almost victorian look. I’m not sure if this part of the inner world exists or not, I know at one point it had been transformed. It used to be were a persecuting part would send her and punish her. Our ISH helped to try and free her from the persecutor and we’re all hoping she will be able to now defend herself a little better if that part comes after her again.